NaNoWriMo whilst working!?!

As I’m sure a lot of you are aware, every November is the chance for budding novelists to write 50k words of a manuscript without editing it. It’s a way for people to force themselves to tell the story that they’ve had locked up in the head for some time. And it’s also a time for you to try and set aside a portion of each day to write. It sounds like a wonderful time and something quite straightforward, in theory, but for the past 5 years I have found it difficult to do.

No matter how determined I am to sit down and just write solidly for a few hours I find it difficult to find the time to do so. If it wasn’t revising for exams and writing essays it’s long commutes and full work days including a good few hours a day of prep for lessons and private classes. I feel like I’m making excuses as other people have managed to do it but when I know that I don’t have anything else to do I can sit and write for hours at a time. A few months ago I wrote 3k in a day because I had the time and nothing else that required my attention. But as soon as I want to try and do that, I suddenly find myself with too many things going on.

Another thing that annoys me is that I probably write more on my blogs than I do with any of my novel ideas! I mean, don’t get me wrong I love my blogs and I would never give them up, but it is just frustrating that I can never seem to do the same with my novel. It’s just a little crazy as I love my novel as well. I love the idea I have and I also love the way that I’ve started to tell it. I just wish I had the time to get it onto paper so that more people can love the story like I do.

I currently have to write 26k in before the 30th November if I want to be able to finish and win this year which I think might be pushing it for even the best writers! Although I haven’t gotten to 50k I am happy as I have more time to finish this when I want and I now have something started I can hopefully spend my Christmas dedicated to it, or at least some of my Christmas anyway. I’m trying to be hopeful that I will have finished the entire manuscript by the end of the year and I think it will probably be a little longer than 50k but I’m not sure how much longer as I’ve never written a full manuscript before. Something that both terrifies and interests me. I know most people never have their first novel published but I hope to be one of those that breaks the mold as I think my idea is sound I just need to make sure that the edges have been smoothed out.

With my past failures I often wonder if I should give up and not bother with the event for the next year, and even with writing in general. But without a doubt I always find myself being sucked back in with the thrill of trying to write so much in a month. A positive note to take from all of this is that I have actually improved each year so I am showing that there is something happening which is allowing me to write more and more year upon year. So maybe despite my current lack of success one year I will be able to prove myself wrong and surpass the 50k total? And perhaps finally finish a full manuscript?

But I suppose I won’t know until it finally happens!

Hasta la fuego

Lauren 🙂 x

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